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Fire burns and blisters your skin   So you jump into the sea to save yourself Because drowning is safer than the flames Because pushing everything down is safer than feeling Because every step is agony and you can’t stop the pain Feel nothing at all so the pain can’t destroy you Be numb Because the pain of feeling is too much to bear Be silent Because crying out makes it real again Swim deeper No Don’t let it happen again Don’t let yourself be caught, dragged up onto the butchers block, and skinned, and cut and filleted into a million pieces Swim deeper Until all you can see is darkness All you can feel

He wakes and covers the bruises with a smile. He remembers the words, that he is ugly and vile. He only has one picture, of a once happy home But now he sits in his kitchen, anguished and alone The words of his father ring in his head "You're not my son, you're a monster, I wish you were dead" He can hear his mother's heartbroken cries "Tell me it isn't true, that these are all lies" He remembers the day as if it were fresh and new His parents saying "we cannot love you" But his feelings he could not hold Whom he loved could not be controlled Then it happened three years later His love reduced to a smouldering crater They had be